Susie: I loved you John, but I didn't know that you are a monster! John: You don't become a doctor, engineer or a scientist. When your father killed your mother right in front of your eyes. when you are four years old ......and you see your drunk father pointing a gun at your mother who is shouting "you are a monster", you are no human.... Shut up, Shut up, Shut up...my father shouted. I was trying to push my father away with all the strength my four years old body had... Bang! Bang! that's the last thing I heard before I passed out.... Bang! Bang!